Round 2

Once again we are trying to conceive a baby... its the waiting that is frustrating. We did have an appointment with our now OBGYN which went well. I was encouraged to hear that from my history we are in great shape to conceive again and not to worry about another possible miscarriage. Only this time not to tell the world until 8wks and a heartbeat. I've found out more about miscarriage since mine. Such as 1 in 5 woman have them; a lot of woman don't even know that they are pregnant yet when it happens; a lot of the woman that I know have experienced one. Its the not knowing why that drives me crazy, that is when I try to remind myself that it was my body and God doing what was best for us at this time.
So the waiting begins.... again.

Long Time... No Posts

So sorry that I haven't posted lately. I really haven't wanted to post the events that followed just 5 days after my last posting. Unfortunately I miscarried on July 9th so we are back to being at the TTC stage. Positive side is at least we know we can get pregnant now and if it had to happen at least it happened only 5 wks in rather than later. It has taken time and still continues to at times be a struggle for me to deal with. I have found out that many woman go through this, some of them are friends and family that you didn't even know had experienced it. A part of me looks for the "why" and "was it my fault?" but things happen and this was my body being healthy and saying "Something is not right.... something is quite wrong..."
Also on the positive side is this opens the opportunity for myself and one of my long time friends to possibly be pregnant together as they are TTC as well. The 2 of us are only 5 weeks apart in our own births how fun it would be to have babies together.
It was once again at this junction in our lives that FB became a bittersweet network. On one hand people were able to easily share their love and concern without me getting emotional face to face with them. On the other hand I got to see friends that are still blessed in childbearing; which brings us back to the "why?" question. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for them but why me? There is a bigger picture I know, I just wish I could see the forest and the trees at the same time.
Other than that life is still the same here. BJ was in the process of switching it a different shift when one of he coworkers quit therefore leaving him at his current shift which of course doesn't work well for a newly married couple and I of course don't take it well most of the time. I like to be able to interact with my husband on a daily basis not just on his days off. Again... part of a bigger picture. At least he has a good job, getting good hours with benefits.
Not really anything else to share at this point but now that I have shared the sorrow I feel I can possibly get back into posting so that any followers can stay updated on everything.... especially when we have any great announcements since we are still TTC.

Not much going on here

ok so not much to post right now seeing as not much is happening baby wise... at least not evident to me yet...
right now i'm checking out new shows on Hulu.com
The Middle is fuuuunnnnny. The mom is played by the same mom that was on Everyone Loves Raymond.


AAAAA summer celebration is going on this week and it is turning into a pain for me. We have to take different route back and forth to BJ's work or get stuck in MAJOR traffic. That may sound like a stupid complaint but I usually drive on automatic pilot so that means I have to stop and think about every turn I take. Ugh! only a couple more days and that part of life goes back to normal. we're planning on going down to the art and craft fair to walk around and look. I told BJ that it would get me out of the house and walking besides I plan to my self an elephant ear. Summer is the only time you can get them due to that's the only time of year that the booths are open. Tis the season in West Michigan... that and Pronto Pups in Grand Haven. Been there, ate them with my long time friend Jenny.


Just remembered a new change due to the baby... going to the restroom twice as much. which for me is different. I use to tease my mom about how whenever we went on road trips she would start out drinking coffee. then what seemed like less than 2 hrs down the road she would have to stop at a rest stop. Then at meal time she would drink pop or water maybe coffee and again would have to stop... not to mention she would go there when at the meal stop too. meanwhile dad and i would ride hours with out even the need....
well the curse works, you know the curse that mom's put on their children that when the kids become parents they will experience the same things the original parents did.... its kicking in already. all the years of teasing, well i'm becoming my mother. no that's not a bad thing just different. I'm WAY more emotional than i use to be. no old yeller doesn't make me cry but all dogs go to heaven does. and now guess what i have to pee a lot.

Chapter ?: The New Beginning

After much mental debate I decided that this new chapter needs a blog. A way for me to communicate with myself and possibly others what we are going through and what is happening. Not to mention my opportunity to actually speak out about what I think.

What has deemed this point in our lives as a new chapter? Four days ago we took an important test and the results were relief, excitement, and shock. Four days ago we found out that we are pregnant. This was something that we (myself especially) had hoped for but we're in the dark as to how soon or long it would take to come about.

So please bear with me as I explore this new fronter of blogging the days, weeks and months ahead as this new chapter unfolds.

Now that I have prefaced this a little I want to jump right in. I started doing a little online research this morning since sleep was escaping me. I stumbled or rather clicked across an informative website concerning the week by week development of the baby. My best guesstimation is we are entering week 5 which would be the 3rd week since conception.

I was amazed to see that the first heart beat could be by the end of next week. NEXT WEEK?! The miracle of it all! And after looking ahead a few more weeks (wk 8)I was completely shocked to see in a picture that the form of the new little one could be visible. So soon! Again, the miracle of it all! Now at this point it would be wise and safe for me to point out that twins run in both our families though I know that the decision is from my man's side. Hmmmm twins. We'll cross that bridge if and when we come to it.

Now that we know we are expecting I'm going to have to step up my preparations even more. The other bedroom which was going to be the game room painted in San Jose Shark colors will now be the baby room; though I'm thinking of still playing with the same colors only different hues. That means I have to get organized. Actually this may make it easier... I'm sure there are a lot of things in those boxes that I won't want to bother with keeping now that we are making way for a baby.

Yes, we have been thinking of baby names... I've had a few picked out for years but have made alterations due to wanting to bring in some family names from his side as well. He is a Jr. so I decided that a son would need to bear the name too; however we plan to use it as a middle name so as to prevent possible confusion or teasing. As for a girl I'm thinking of using the middle name of my name sake. I was given her first name but my middle name was inevitable: after 4 boys I was the only girl so what else could it be but Joy. At least that is what my mom has always told me. LOL