Long Time... No Posts

So sorry that I haven't posted lately. I really haven't wanted to post the events that followed just 5 days after my last posting. Unfortunately I miscarried on July 9th so we are back to being at the TTC stage. Positive side is at least we know we can get pregnant now and if it had to happen at least it happened only 5 wks in rather than later. It has taken time and still continues to at times be a struggle for me to deal with. I have found out that many woman go through this, some of them are friends and family that you didn't even know had experienced it. A part of me looks for the "why" and "was it my fault?" but things happen and this was my body being healthy and saying "Something is not right.... something is quite wrong..."
Also on the positive side is this opens the opportunity for myself and one of my long time friends to possibly be pregnant together as they are TTC as well. The 2 of us are only 5 weeks apart in our own births how fun it would be to have babies together.
It was once again at this junction in our lives that FB became a bittersweet network. On one hand people were able to easily share their love and concern without me getting emotional face to face with them. On the other hand I got to see friends that are still blessed in childbearing; which brings us back to the "why?" question. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for them but why me? There is a bigger picture I know, I just wish I could see the forest and the trees at the same time.
Other than that life is still the same here. BJ was in the process of switching it a different shift when one of he coworkers quit therefore leaving him at his current shift which of course doesn't work well for a newly married couple and I of course don't take it well most of the time. I like to be able to interact with my husband on a daily basis not just on his days off. Again... part of a bigger picture. At least he has a good job, getting good hours with benefits.
Not really anything else to share at this point but now that I have shared the sorrow I feel I can possibly get back into posting so that any followers can stay updated on everything.... especially when we have any great announcements since we are still TTC.